*in shock*

I received a piece of shocking news this morning. A piece of news so shocking and unexpected and totally not what I've been wanting. It shattered my cozy world and till now, I am still in shock and have not taken this piece of news well.

Still wishing and hoping that it is not real.

The confirmation will come tomorrow. If it's confirm, EVERYTHING will change, my work, my studies, my life. There will be a formal annoucement and everything will then come into place.

Hopefully then, all the details and pieces of jigsaw will fall into places and explains why certain things happened.

But I'd rather things remain status quo...

Brave move

On Tuesday night, Hubby got a sms from OBIL. On FIL's instruction, asking why we so long never go back home.

Hubby smsed something back and then that's it. So I urged him to call the PIL assuring them that we are ok, just that we are both so busy with school that we really have no time to go back even for dinner.

Our current weekly routine stands as this...
Monday - my lessons at SIM, Hubby at home
Tuesday - Hubby to revise for exam, I do my revision / TMA (only night when both Hubby and I are at home together after work!)
Wednesday - Hubby exam, I settle the laundry
Thursday - my lessons at SIM, Hubby lessons at SMA
Friday - I go for body sculpt, hubby do revision
Saturday - Hubby full day lessons, me settle household chores then mass and dinner
Sunday - Hubby full day lessons again and I do revision / TMA then dinner at my parents only cause it's walking distance from our nest

See? Not say we don't want to go, but there's hardly a night where we are together already, how to have time to for dinner at PIL's place?

We used to go on Tuesday coz that's day off for MIL. But with hubby's exam on every Wednesday, the time spent travelling is really spent on revision instead.

On Wednesday, while I was having dinner, a sudden thought creep into my head. It says "give a call to PIL to tell them why we've not been going back" I was not willing to do that! But the thought remains, like something that grew root there and I can shake it off.

Gingerly, I picked up the phone... and proceed to put it down, with the thought, it's PIL, hubby's parents, it's better that he speak to them. Yet the thought just won't go off. Picked up the phone again and this time, I dialled.

One ring. Two rings. Three rings and my heart lightened. Maybe there's no one at home I thought happily. But it got through and MIL answered. My heart quickened and sank at the sametime. No choice, cannot hang up.

Heck la. Just do it. Talked to her, explained to her. Told her that FIL asked OBIL to sms hubby. I also told hubby to call them. But hubby din want to. So I call and tell them all is well. Just that we are both so overwhelmed with school and work, really don't have the time. Even gave her a day by day report that we are busy.

Chatted for a good 30 mins. LONGEST I've ever held a conversation with MIL and then hang up. Talked about nitty gritty things. Exams, studies, chores, prices and even the AMK Market that got burnt down.

Finally hang up and I think it was a pretty good conversation. I hope she don't think that I'm being inteferring. Just that I feel since Hubby so lazy and don't bother to call and they are worried, I might as well tell them. Rather than they "searching high and low" for us and give them the impression that we don't want to go back. Might as well let them know how busy we are.

I'm still not sure if this is the right move I've made. Would I be sending them the signals that they are loosing their son? Would I give them them the impression that I'm calling the shots (though most of the time, I am la, but they don't need to know ma). Anway, I think it was a reckless and kind of silly move I made. By making that call.

Still not sure what made me do it. But that thought just plonked itself in my head and cannot be shaken off!

Anyway, what's done is done. If they don't like it also no choice. I called already. But my real motive was really to assure them that we are ok. Just very busy with school work. Not that we are ignoring them lor. I cannot help it if they want to think otherwise right?

too small then too big!

Remember I bought lots of things recently during the sprees that was opened?

Finally all my items had arrived. And it also has been quite sometime since I last bought anything from any spree. F21 is not counted as spree since, 1) it's opened by Irene. 2) I don't incur local postage 3) She's a PERSONAL friend and the spree is just for ppl she know.

Anyway, that's not the point, the point is, I purchased this brown top with big bold ribbon in front and it finally arrived after soooo long. Close to 2 months maybe?

But I CANNOT wear!!! =( Why? Coz the waist is tooooo huge! I looked like I'm hiding 2 chickens inside! hai...

First the clothes from Causeway were too small, so I went to get from another spree that has plus sizes and then now too big!

hai.... I guess, I have to give up buying cheap clothes from Taiwan or Korea sites from now onwards. This leaves me no choice but to stick to more 'high class' sites. I think F21 will be a good site to start on, ya?

ARGH! Nothing seems to be going right.

Woke up pretty early this morning, coz my brain was full of the "Key similarities and differences between conventional partnership, LLP and Pte Ltd incorported company limited by shares" portion and I just can't get back to sleep anymore. Considering that I went to bed at 2+am last night, getting up at 9.30am IS major early!

But even though my brain is filled with this question (which is just the 1st question, I have another 2 more to go), the moment I sat in front of my tablet, my brain and fingers began to wander.

So far, I've sent and replied emails, searched for some items I was interested in from Spree, browse thru F21 T-W-I-C-E but yet to start work on my TMA!!!! Argh!!!

I only have 1 conclusion, no! Maybe 3 conclusions.

First, it's a big mistake to browse thru F21 this early in the morning. Now my brain is filled with the 2 jackets and I can't concentrate anymore!

The Napali TrenchcoatThe Wool Blend CoatSo, I've set my eyes on this 2 besides the 3 last night. Well done!

2nd conclusion, it's a total waste of time waking up so early with TMA as the first thought. Since, I won't be able to get started on it till my internal engine has woken up. Which for the last hour, still has not fully woken up. No matter how much I stare at the damn paper, I just cannot concentrate and cannot begin to work on it!!!

And the last conclusion, if I have to wake up early, I must make sure hubby does the same! Why? Because, since I cannot get started on work, I might as well get started on household chores! But I cannot now coz he is still sleeping!!! The moment I start to vaccumm, he'll wake up and then it's my fault for waking him.

Argh! Feeling achy from the workout last night, hungry since last night (which I went to bed after half a pack of Twisties shared with hubby), rushed for time and stressed since the TMA is due on Tuesday evening for discussion with my friends, frustrated with work and school. Pek Chek coz today is Hari Raya and ppl are enjoying the holiday while I'm stuck at home doing assignments and neighbors are making a ruckus since this morning!

Argh....

Argh!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reviews

I know I promised to do some product reviews but till now, I've still not done it. So, finally, I'm going to do it now.

For the last 2 to maybe 3 weeks, I've been using a new eyeliner and mascara. Kate Superfine eyelinerand the Majolica mascara. The first time I used the Kate Superfine eyeliner, I felt abit apprehensive. After all, the brush tip does looks intidimating, worse of all it's liquid! What if it smudges and all? Then I end up looking like Ms Panda eyes! However, finally I pluck up enough courage to try it out...

But after the first stroke... woo hoo. I like! The first stroke is the hardest, they say and they are right! Since there is no prior line to follow, I can only agar agar and draw. But it really helps as the tip of the brush is so fine and soft! Yet the color is not as dark as I imagined it to be. So it's not that bad. So normally, after the first stroke, I'll add a second, sometimes even a third! It's so easy to handle the pen and best of all, the color does not smudge, only thing is, I must remember to hold the lid for just a few more seconds as compare to using the pencil kind.

Next, I tried the MM Mascara. Some reviews that the mascara can lengthen the lashes up to 15 times! Really!

But it did not have that kind of effect on me. Yes, it does lengthens nicely. But not to 15 times, such exaggeration!

What I really like about the mascara, is that instead of the usual brush, this comes in a comb. So it's much much easier to jiggle those lashes! And to reach the corner ones too!

Since, I've been a bush mascara person all along, initially I did find it hard to adapt to this new one. And many a times, I brush the mascara into the underside of my lid and that kind of irritates my eyes the whole day. But putting on mascara takes practice and after just 2,3 days, I manage to get the hang of it and now I can put it on effortlessly! =)

What I really really like about this mascara is that just 1 coat, and my lashes becomes soooo much longer! Really, when I first started, I used 2 coats and my lashes felt too heavy and the mascara seems too thick too! So I used 1 coat and VOILA! The end result is fabulous! I love it!!!

I don't think I'm going to change my eye liner and mascara anytime soon since I really like the ease of use. BETTER yet, the price is sooooo reasonable! It's less than $18 per piece and it produces wonderful results!

Now, this IS really cheap and good!

However, despite it being so good and definitely smudge proof, there's a problem. My usual Fancl Mild Cleansing Oil is not effectively able to remove all the eyeliner and mascara. Now, that is a big problem! I realised that my lids were beginning to get darker by the day... and my beautician actually commented how come my lids kept getting darker... suddenly it clicked and I guess it's because the mascara and eyeliner is staining my skin as I must not have washed everything off proberly. SO I must have a more effective eye make up remover. But I don't like the loreal nor maybeline ones since those have a rather high alcohol content.

Went to Tomatoe in AMK and the SA there recommended me this.

Make up removed from Korea.Obviously, I cannot even remember the name of this thing la. But I'm using it now and it works. Just wet the cotton pad, placed it over the eye area, let it soak up a bit then proceed to clean off the make up. Best of all, that same pad can be used for both eyes, so 1 bottle like that can go a long way, I gather.

There's actually a layer of oil and water, so got to shake it up well before using, the SA assured me that even though there's oil in it, it will not give me those oil seeds around the corner of my eyes.

Since I cannot find anything else, I decided to give it a try. I was of course not willing to take it up as this little bottle costs $28!!! That's expensive to me!

But for the sake of my skin, I guess I have to do it. Hence, I did and no regrets since. Of course after using this, I still use my Fancl for the rest of my face and any excess, I'll also run it over my eye lids, to be doubly sure that all traces are removed!

So far, I noticed the area at my eye lids are beginning to lighten up, no longer as dark as previous. I guess, this remover works and of course my creams are working too lor.

Anyway, my products better work mann!! I'm spending a bomb on them!!!

Shopping Queen @ Work

Have been soooo damn busy with work and school that I seriously have NO time to do any shopping offline or online. I am so not joking when I said that and the only piece of shopping which I did for the entire 2 months was the watch that I got for hubby. Even then, I only got it coz it was kind of on the way for me when I went for my facial!

SO, I thought that I'm over the shopping phrase or so I thought. But the magnetism of shopping is just too strong to resist.

When Irene told me she's organising another F21 spree and asked if I'm interested, I found myself browing thru the webby in ernest. -_-" There goes the saving part but in return, I gained for myself yet another tunic, this time, it's a simple looking one which is suitable for more serious occassion. A little Black Dress but in Purple! Which reminds me of that dress in Robinsons that I've been aiming for for a long time but din manage to buy.which was a steal at $10.50 USD!

Lastly, I got for myself a wool cadet hat too! Cute hor?! I bought the black one though, in preparation for my Israel trip end of this year. Pity F21 had no gloves... else I'm pretty sure, I'll be making a purchase too!

There was also this pair of shoes that I like very much! But shoes is something which is hard to gauge hence I din buy. But looks very nice hor?

Then today, I was still browsing thru the webby and I found MORE things I like! Like this sweet looking dress! and this chiffon tunic!Then coz of the upcoming trip to Israel, I've also been eying on some winter clothings and these are what caught my eyes.

Faux Fur Cardigan Wool Coat Colorado Knit Jacket And my favorite...

Corduroy Hat!!!Which I did not buy. Coz Godma says this is meant for snowing temperature. And Israel will not be snowing then. Hence I bought the Cadet Hat instead.

All looks so cute right?! I think I'm going mad already la! Actually, 2 or 3 weeks back, both Hubby and I have already bought a thick jacket each! And I even bought another trench coat kind of dress... But, since this is our first time going to cold countries, kind of excited and just feel like getting so much more clothings lor. I know it's a waste to get too many pieces of such clothes since it does not even have winter in sunny Singapore. But it's all these nice and new clothes that's making me go gaga. =(

I guess the next best thing to do is either hope and pray that I strike Toto / 4D or Irene decides to hold another spree. Else, someone hold a spree but don't let me know!

No entries for sometime

Since don't know when, I suddenly sort of stopped blogging. =/

Maybe coz it's the amount of work pilling from both office and school? Maybe it's coz I lost the interst? Maybe it's coz my life is soooo boring till there's nothing left to blog?

Maybe, coz I got so sick of my TMA which I worked so hard for and in the end got a miserable 51? Maybe it's coz my msn got virus?

I don't know la. Just feel so sian of all these things happening. =(

Anway, school has started in ernest. This is already my second week back to school having night lessons and within this short span of 2 weeks, I have 2 quizes coming up this weekend already. Very fast.

Time is soo short and the list of things to do, to study seems endless!

Maybe it's coz I have had too long a break and then now, I can't seem to get my engine to start and move.

I guess, with abit more time, I'll be better =)