Weekend troubling thoughts...

I really do love weekends, don't u? Except for the cooking, cleaning and marketing, I have absoultely nothing to complain abt weekends at all! Just plenty of lazing around at home, watching TV and doing absoutely nothing. I just sooo love it.

Besides watching the 3rd/4th placing of soccer 2006 till the wee hours of this morning, nothing very exciting leh.

The next most exciting will probably be the trip that hubby and me are going lor. But tat's still another 2,3 months down the road.

Kinda of a long wait for me leh. I just want to go and relax. *sigh*

Another heavy thing on my mind is actually the study thingy. This issue is still weighing on my mind since that very day tat I was summoned to Dir's office. So what are the cause of actions I have taken from tat day till now?

Not a lot I must say, I only went to find out some of the courses that I am more interested in then look thru webby and things like that. Has gone to "SMA", a private commercial schools doing programs from Uni of Murdoch, somehow I just have a feeling that my co won't be too happy abt private schools so I called the HR mgr. And true to my suscipions, I WAS right! She said, they prefer, local uni's. That will be NTU, NUS, SMU as first choice. If not then open uni, and that will be SIM.

Since I know for sure, that I cannot go into the first choice schools, my choice will only be SIM now lor. Coz Dir has also said that he is not willing to sponsor full time, so SIM is my best proposal for him since he keeps bothering me to study.

The next thing, after I have reached this conclusion, is HOW to go about telling Chua BK and the Dir. *Sigh* THIS is the issue that is bothering me these few days since I already have my choices there.

Now, I don't know if I want them to say "yes" or to say "no" to me leh. SERIOUSLY, I really really don't know. As said, I know it is good but I'm sooo afraid that I cannot manage and fail all of them.

Backtrack to Fri, the last few mins before I left office, Cindy msn me. It came as a surprise to me coz though I c her daily in MSN, we don't usually chat. The conversation went something like this...
Cindy: Yo! I heard u are not joining RCIA as sponsor anymore?
Me: Hi! Ya. I quit after the last process.
Cindy: huh?? Y? I'm singing tonite for the opening, was so hoping to talk to u and ur hubby.
Me: We felt tat we not spritually strong enough to lead the enquirers and also, we are embarking on a study program, worried that we don't have time for all these.
Cindy: Huh? How can you judge yourself when no one is judging you? But I get what u mean, I'm also afraid of the time committment.
Me:*totally stumpped for words & desprately thinking if my maker is trying to tell me something at this point of time.*
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I'm serious leh, I am really thinking if my maker is trying to say something, except that I still din quite get it. Really not leading a prayerful enough life.

Hubby says I'm thinking too much but I feel otherwise, coz y else wld Cindy be saying these to me on FRIDAY nights of all nights?

But anyway, it is too late to go into RCIA already, Fr Yim demands strict training, discipline and attendance for ALL the sponsors. But I still feel that I am not spritual enough. According to hubby, the 1st nite was good. Hubby went as a companion to his younger bro. =) Very well organised and the rules and guidelines were given to all and made clear then. Good! GOOD!! I personally feel that it is better.

Anyway... so for the weekend that is slowly slipping me by, my thoughts are troubled with wat Cindy msn me all of a sudden, my bro in law in RCIA, hubby's studies and my HOW TO open my mouth to ask boss.